November 2010
1 post
I am afraid of losing another one. I am afraid of falling asleep tonight. I don’t know what else to say. I don’t feel anything right now.
Oh well, caffeine time.
August 2010
1 post
d is for dear dav.
met up with a friend in melbourne just yesterday (the last time we met was when i was in hong kong 1.5 years ago). she’s here for biz with her boss/friend and his co-workers. got to spend a little bit of time with all of them but what i really wanted was just to spend time with MY friend.
but because of her hectic work schedule, i had to wait all the time. not that i wasn’t willing...
June 2010
2 posts
i didn't like yesterday.
but i’m pretty glad that i pulled through. it’s been 3 years but i still miss my jiepo all the time.
with this semester OFFICIALLY over, i’m a free bird :) boy it’s been a bad bad bad week. never once felt that lost and the feeling of knowing that you’ll probably fail but yet you still have to be there to do it, just kills me softly.
I actually don’t like the...
SWOT
swotvac - never liked it. it’s just a week of hell.
this one night, i asked myself if i could ever sing and play and have fun in public. I realised that i can’t. not anymore. but i do want to step out of this and do the fun things that i used to do in the past. i am trying. i just need to be patient with myself and with people that i don’t love.
i hate swotvac. i hate it when i...
May 2010
1 post
i like how we just decide to forget about the promises and try to know one another again.
but no, it’s not really working.
deep inside, i really want to know what you’re thinking. so please tell me.
April 2010
2 posts
I used to think that I’m everyone’s smiley girl. But i realised that I can never be that person again (which is pretty sad because I really think I was more cheerful in the past).
But on a happier and more serious note, I think I’ve grown more attached to the One who created me. I’m happy inside though a bit dark -still-. Maybe it’s because I feel emotions these days...
“Hello, this is your LIFE conscience speaking. You have no idea what you’re doing, do you?”
January 2010
1 post
2009 will never come back.
i hope that things can go back like before - though i know it can’t.
i hope that i don’t get nightmares anymore. just sweet dreams and uninterrupted ones (i got woken up for nothing before i could finish my roasted chicken rice WHICH i paid for already)
i hope that i can do what i want to achieve in school.
i hope that i can take summer and not go crazy.
i hope to win all the time....
November 2009
2 posts
pssst! i hope you can hear me.
i have a lot to say to aug actually. if only i knew this would happen to you. if only i knew that you will leave us so soon, so abruptly. if only…
aug ah. i thank you for the time you called me TO PLAY MAHJONG. so random but i can still remember you saying ”我打給你因為我懂你一定要玩！”. now that i think about it, thank you.
i rem during pe in sec 2, i ran all the way without stopping during...
Goodbye Flower Boy
your memory lives on. we miss you.
Why you pull such a stunt? It wasn’t funny.. not at all.. Still, we know you didn’t want it to happen. but, we still miss you. very much.
October 2009
5 posts
!!!
i have this crazy person that i know (not a friend definitely, i have no friends like that) who keeps saying she wants to die, wants to commit suicide, will definitely go and jump down this very minute x100000! okay basically that sentence is on repeat-mode. and for what reason is she saying this? it’s a very very very stupid stupid stupid thing. that’s why, i despise you. i can...
i took the last straw away.
i think i have a problem. but, i’m glad for friends. they get me all the time. not the ‘geddit’ get it, but the ‘i’ve got your back’ get it.
i’m sick of talking to someone not because i want to, but because i think i need to - when i don’t. and it’s sad when you no longer understand each other. let’s see where this goes next.
i hate...
2009 - the year full of changes.
nothing can be done or could have been done without changing anything. ”i changed my mind”, ”change of plans”.
suddenly i feel so lost afraid. so insecure for the very first time. i don’t know where to go. should i stay, or should i go?
where can i go?
wait hang on. suddenly i hear ”even though God closed this door, He has another one opened for you.”
...
the day my sun rose from the west.
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Today, Friday and the whole of next week. It did and will continue to be abnormal.
I hate law. I think the English language makes everything worse because that is worse than learning law. ANYWAY, i still hate law. I know that that displeases so many people around me BUT still (again!), i hate law.
I will be done with you on the 29th October, 1230pm.
Which side - left or right?
I don’t know how to open my mouth to ask for help, even though I know that I could change a life.
September 2009
3 posts
Please pray.
When I’m alone sometimes, I tend to think and do a review of what happened during the day; what interesting things suddenly (watch out!) BOOMZed out etc. So when I heard about the recent floods, tsunami.. I can’t help but feel sad. And it’s worse if you have friends..you just don’t know what to say, how to react. I just hope that I get a reply soon or at least hear...
missing
i don’t know what exactly is missing. i don’t feel alone here actually, in fact, i feel like i’ve settled in quite well. i feel like crying for the past few days but no, i don’t feel sad or anything. i just feel like it but somehow i’m pretty strong. I think i miss being near family. i printed out quite a few pictures and stuck them to my cork board. Bella as the...
Tumblr is good.
Nothing should be complicated. It makes your life shorter. When people say ”life is short!”, it probably means that they are thinking too much. Yup so Wordpress makes my life short, that’s why I’m here to tumble! haha! - To make my life longer so that I can see wonderful things all the time while I’m alive.